Step 11, page 86 was my entree into formal step action.
A night meeting speaker dwelled upon each sentence from "On awakening to end of chapter..........."
I was desperate at a sober bottom.
Each morning thereafter, I did pick up the Big Book and
contemplated each sentence/direction.
Recently, almost 19 years later,
I realized that the first directions help clear the mind. Then,
it shifts to contemplation about higher power
and directive to other sources.
Ponder each of these separately.
I started Big Book step 4 work during this period.
I learned to quickly spot these defects with steps 4 and 5..
Identify specific fears.
This gets better as 4 through 9 are worked.
AA emphasizes quick action or decision for non-action.
Recovered people act this way.
A time to learn better communication and other skills.
The old bondage of self !
By self forgetting one finds - 12&12page99.
No matter how we feel, do God's will.
Research how recovered people handle similar situations.
let us think about the twenty-four hours ahead.
Set aside 20 minutes or more for morning step 11 work.
NOTE - not yesterday, but each morning, plan the day. Some things need preparation, of course. I pin down as little time as possible. This leaves time open for pleasant surprises. Keep it simple. I don't waste driving for things that can be combined with necesary trips. I accomplish tasks a bit at a time rather than obsessive planning. Many things are never *finished*, but, they do the job.
I am directed not to whine at meetings. One to one is aappropriate for details of problems.
And at 62, (now 65 - 2/22/99) I can't remember my problems!
We research God's will. We grow in effectiveness. We can learn communication skills. Etc. etc.
Try to spot this feeling. It subtly can overtake us.
There is definite action, if we choose not to be trapped in bondage of self. From the 12&12 step 5,
"It is worth noting that even people of very high spiritual development check out with friends and spiritual advisors the guidance they feel they have received from God."
Reread page 84 about definite action. "We continue to watch for..................
I slowed driving when this direction popped into my head after days of step 11 repetition.
When something aint working, stop, give it a rest or perhaps it's not meant to be.
Again, see the page 84 directions.
I don't feel qualified to improve on any of the prayers in the Big Book or 12&12. They work fine!
Other AA literature, the traditions, concepts, have guidance on how to act in specific situations.
Be quick to see where religious people are right. Make use of what they offer.
They may not all be right, but try to see where anyone may be right.
Again, take a break. Again check out 84 directions.
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